Mladic in a box

Mladic in a box – one reality show really worth watching

So, today´s topic: if I had my own realty tv show what would it be about, what would be the name and who are the main characters.

Hmm. Not my own reality tv show, but let´s assume I had the possibilities of producing:

It´s about a former eastern european general indicated by the ITCY and occasionally hunted for war crimes (and crimes against humanity)
There´s a € 10 Million reward for information leading to his arrest.
Will he ever be arrested? Who is coming forward with decent information? Who is purposedly giving out misinformations?
What about the rumours Mladic gave away information on Karadzic´s whereabouts to save himself?
What about Wikileaks about Mladic?

How to relax and be productive at the same time

The last two topics from postaday2011 in my case can be summed up with one post:
1) What ist going on in my life and what is driving me nuts
2) What´s one peace of technology I can´t live without?

It is this dilemma: I need to relax, yet when I do I have a bad conscience- as if I did something criminal.
That probably is rooted in my childhood. Always being challenged to “do something” learning, cleaning, helping out, educating myself being smart 24/7 in general etc etc.

Funny enough – there´s one piece of technology that has helped me profoundly with my dilemma. As awkward as it sounds – it is my Ipad.

So I have an issue with relaxing. But at the same time I am a dreamy type. The bossy type in me is always interested in finding more solutions for being busy. And the free spirited mind in me just wants to sleep,read, read more, meditate, eat, taking long walks for recreations and inspirations. Or do yoga so long as to flow.

This is really difficult to handle.

Amazingly enough I am writing and working well. What drives me nuts or crazy is the fact that there is not enough time.
Maybe it´s the tea I am drinking or it´s the cold weather -currently I do have way too much energy, which means I would rather spend all my time 24/7 doing those projects, but because time is limited I am only focusing on one.
Sleep is important, we humans function better with a decent dose of sleep. Within dreams there is no time limit.
What if I was capable of using the one for the other?
I used to keep a dreamjournal for many months. Then I read a few dreams. There was nothing really shocking about it. It was rather a lesson in decoding some of my recurring topics as well as just reading some interesting stories/ painting some pictures.
Nevertheless it proved to be an enormous, helpful source for my work. So I started that habit again-to keep the machine running.

Now I am really happy to sleep. The energy is still there.
And stupid as it sounds _ since I have an Ipad I am way more productive than ever.
And that leads me to something else:

I do know that there is some sort of “lucid dreaming movement”
not just since “Inception”. I believe in the power of dreaming since my childhood. As a child I was always teased for being “dreamy” or as one friend called it – having the ability to disappear within moments.
I tried some research on some sites and I watched a few Videos on Youtube about “Lucid dreaming”.

I spare anyone from listening to my dreams.
It´s one thing to read some dreams, but having to listen to dreams I still consider to be the lowest and most primitive form of conversation.

Many friends hate me for not loving “Inception”. I was impressed,but not smitten. What impressed me was the technology and the stunning effects. But the reasons I still do not fall for that story are:

Prior to Inception I saw “Shutter Island”. And I did not like it.
The atmosphere from “Shutter Island” somehow transpired to “Inception”. And then there was the constant deja-vue with the
main character´s obesession over his wife.
While watching “Inception” my mind went in four directions. One was dedicated to the story of Inception, the other to the film mentioned prior. Then I focused on the effects plus all of “Inceptions” levels.

And then my mind went off- I was suddenly only interested in Di Caprios´s motivations for taking up these two roles- apart from working with two remarkable directors.

So is “Inception” the rational follow up to “Shutter Island”?

One Thing I definetly hated about Inception is the fact that it is a solemly male centered film. Without a pun – as soon as women appear even the dreams become freakish. Oh my god! Of course they have to. Because of the woman.

And I do not say that, because I love”chick films” or whatever they are supposed to be.

But enough of that.

My favourite sound

I love the sound of my children. The sound of their existence. Even when they are screaming and fighting. I can say that know because they are asleep and I feel sentimental.

I love the sound of a cash machine as well. That used to be my favourite sound.
And I love the sound of victory. The quiet one.

how to define a friend and 3 things to be a better friend

a friend is someone who is
1.loyal,
2.doesn´t judge or badmouth his friend
3. has no interest in benefits from the friendship

Truth vs Ignorance

Is it always better to know the truth, even when it hurts?

What is truth, anyway? To know the truth is not the same as having an opinion.
On a personal level – friendship often ends because someone is disappointed or has lost trust, some enthusiasm for the friendship.
The friend has dissapointed you, because he/she failed to react a certain way. Because one believes having found some knowing about the “real character”.
“To show one´s true colours”….
Assuming, judging – These are traits that lead to confusion, but also to truth.
Truth is based on facts. But facts can be manipulated. .
If someone is dead that is a fact. To find the killer is the search for truth.
Seperating fiction from truth… this should be news.
But news — political news, are filtered trough personal opinions and interests.
And than you have Wikileaks that helps shed light on certain news that evolved to facts. And that fact then gets distorted via politicans, journalists and news outlets, because they are hurt.
But the sad part is, that many people just listen and filter those Parts parts that are relevant to their beliefsystem.

most important thing

I ´m putting off – …..
writing, spending more quality time with my friends and family.

What is the bravest thing?

I was on the Subway. It was crowded, on the next stop more people squeezed in. The doors closed and the train left for the next stop.
People pressed me against the wall. There was a woman in the crowd, dressed in a Hijab. Maybe because of her clothing people kept a small distance. Everything was quiet. Suddenly a man started insulting the woman.Within seconds he was in a rage.
He shouted at her all kinds of obscenities, insults. She was responsible for everything that went wrong in the world. Nobody said a word. The woman just stood there, covered in black.
It seemed as if the train had stopped moving. I could barely breathe. And then suddenly I heard a voice, sharp but composed.
Someone was putting the man back in his place.
The train slowed down, the next stop was in sight. The doors opened and people went out. The woman was still standing there. Statuesque. So was the man who had previously insulted her. Now he was quiet. He was just an old man, filled with anger.
I saw who was rebuking him. A young man,more a boy.

what gives me hope

Maybe that´s lame, but each day sparks hope.
Each breath as well,
being on my own and visualizing, or listening to music.
Having a conversation. Seeing people, friends. Then I´m brimful of hope.
On the other hand – spending too much time with some people just listening to conversations leads me to abandon hope.
Hope probably is chemical. You can get burned, or you have an imbalance. Can you be balanced and have hope?

Does everything happen for a reason?

War happens – for a reason
Words mislead- for a reason
War does not happen – it´s outbreak is calculated
Words have an impact
Divorce happens – for a reason
We are all open to reason, any or contrary.