Knowledge

Ernest Hemingway spoke of the importance of “knowing what you really felt, rather than what you were supposed to feel, or had been taught to feel.”

Coming back to that later…..

Proverbs

I finally finished the article on James Frey. My comment: The art of pleasing is the art of deceiving.

The whole world is a dream, and death the interpreter.

This is open for discussion.

Why all the anger? We know when we are deceived, becaue we only hear what we want to hear. I love the fact, that James Frey broke the rules, officially. The rules have been broken many, many times, yet as readers we do not think about it.

Inspiration vs habit

To better understand everything it´s important to develop a habit. So, I am writing out of habit. At least I am trying to do so.

A few things on my mind:

• Spiegel Magazine article “Jung, gut und unerwünscht” (pg52ff)
  The article focuses on young academics with migrant background ( right expression?) and their frustration over being discriminiated in work life. They have achieved a good education, diplomas yet when applying for jobs they must deal with prejudice or simple bias. Other´s get the job – simply because they are more german by appearance (their skin is not darker, their names are easier to pronounce etc). So, many of them decide to leave Germany, after realizing that there are other countries with job oppurtinities for them. And those countries fully embrace their binationality.
• While searching for the above mentioned article I found this one Mauer Migrantenstadl. Well, it´s is just funny, isn´t it? First the magazine publishes somthing about educated migrants children and at the same time they inadvertendly poke fun at such children.
  DSDS is short for Deutschland sucht den Superstar (a TV format just like, American Idol,..)
• Sibling rivalry: Olivia de Havilland and Joan Fontaine

Nesting in Rotterdam

Living on the surface

So I have this VanityFair article on want to read. I´m curious about what this was or still is all about. I only grasped the scandal last year. Because I live in Europe (Germany to be precise) and don´t follow many things that are happening in the USA (I used to, well, when I was younger).

Here are a couple of things on my mind today:

• VanityFair´s article on James Frey
• Because I read about Mike Tyson and a new documentary in the NYTimes,
  I want to research a certain documentary on Mike Tyson I missed a few weeks ago (it was broadcast on some sportchannel, as a series on famous/tragic athletes)
• CNN is about to broadcast a a reportage on racism in sport
• Pat Dollard

But first I need some coffee.

Road to recovery

This is the beginning. A new one. I started this blog, I think, two years ago, but it never really took off. First, it was meant to be a platform for my cinerama. …… But things have changed. Movies are still very much on my mind, but…….

Not so long ago I worked as an producer´s assistant at a formidable movie production company. The company was headed by two producers, one extremly talented, the other just a wannabe. That guy drove me crazy. He was so full of himself, but none of his ideas were brilliant, groundbreaking or even thrilling.

One day he passed my door and ordered me to serve him & his guests some coffee. And something inside me just snapped. I turned to him and said: “I don´t serve.” The look on his face was priceless. Of course I was fired – not immediately, but after some time.

Since then it seems as if I´ve unleashed some beast within me. I´m still not sure what´s it all about. I want to stay independent but also remain civil. I hate people who are rude or inpolite.

Neither do I wand to be restricted or surpressed. This blog is all about my life, my struggles and my desire for transformation. I take full responsibility.